August has been a whirlwind of activity for me. Lining up all the production elements for my demo reel, bringing together the co-creators, charging forth through the fast paced shoot, and immediately diving head-first into for back-to-back mini-vacations. The month went by in a blur, and I’m grateful for every moment of it. Today, I re-establish and re-affirm my positive, purpose-driven routines in living this life ablaze. And as I am never one to refer to the magic of serendipity with so mundane a label as “coincidence,” I find it fitting that tonight is the second full moon this month, known as the blue moon.
Now personally, I don’t pay much attention to the cycles of the moon in making decisions for my day-to-day activities. More importantly, I firmly believe that nothing has meaning in this physical life except that which we give to it. That said, I very much like the idea many hold that with the blue moon, today is an opportunity to “let go of cares and concerns and go within the heart to the truth of our being… A time of expansion…” after the craziness of the month I laid out for myself, taking time to re-focus my energies and re-center myself is today’s top priority – blue moon or not.
It’s been a while since I last posted, due in no small part to the massive, all-at-once creative experience that was the shoot for my demo reel. Having never attempted anything like this before, yes, I began on a steep learning curve, but we all must begin somewhere. Better to begin as a novice than to never begin at all.
Throughout the entire process, I’ve been wearing many hats, and during the shoot, that only became more complex. Nine hours of running on a tight schedule I designed, making in-the-moment decisions and adjusting for unpredictable elements on-the-fly was a tremendous, sink-or-swim experience I could not have had any other way. It was a tight-rope balancing act between my varied roles behind the scenes as director, writer, and production manager, and the array of characters I had selected for myself to portray. I loved it.
I have spoken at length about living a life of purpose and passion, and of expressing my creativity through doing what I love. I have asked to live my life ablaze this way; this shoot was all of that and more.
The first night I had scheduled four scenes to shoot back-to-back. It felt like I was surfing atop a 30-foot tall wave – you are absolutely forced to be in this moment – this second. Every decision is critical, as it affects everything else down the line.
I learned the true definition of reliance, as my superb team moved, adjusted, and created with me, bringing their own knowledge, passion, and ideas, making decisions for me that I had no time – and no remaining real estate in my cerebral cortex to begin to wrestle with. They were spectacular. I have the deepest appreciation to the massive contributions from every single individual: the actors, crew, my generous friends who lent their time, energy, creativity, and in some cases their homes to this endeavor of mine – I would consider myself blessed to have the opportunity to work with each of these professionals again.
An event like this, with the massive responsibilities I placed upon myself, takes time to fully digest when completed. You don’t just pick up the same old routine the next day. You’ve just experienced intense change, learned copious lessons, figured out what you want to do better next time and why, and as an actor, depleted much if not all of your emotional reserves, all in a few hours time. Recuperation is an absolute necessity.
Today, having returned from that recuperation via a list of different cities, with two and half weeks of standby flights and 11-hour drives, beaches and board games and horse rides and family fun, my re-alignment with my personal mission is ready to resume.
So now, having experienced the coming together of my demo reel shoot, the next obvious step for me, clearly, is editing it together for the finished reel – and possibly more. Six full scenes have been shot and are in the can, ready to be assembled for a reel ultimately lasting only a minute to 90 seconds in length. There’s plenty to work with. I get to play my way through finding the parts I want to use most, and I’m very much looking forward to it.
With upgrades coming soon to my site, and new acting, writing, and filmmaking projects on the horizon, it’s a very exciting time for me, and I can’t wait to jump right into what comes next!
“You cannot ever get it done because you cannot ever cease to be… Out of your awareness will always be born another asking, and each asking always summons another answering. Your eternal nature is one of expansion – and in that expansion is the potential for unspeakable joy.” ~Abraham-Hicks